As For Me.......

I don't regret what I do, I know who I am
I am well aware of what I want and how I feel.
Maybe this might come back to me 10 fold but I see it as I never recall really do for myself
I always think about what's best for others.
I'm tired of being that person, so I'm doing for me from now on.
I'm not going to be sorry if I hurt anyone while I'm trying to be happy.
I'm only 17 with a whole life ahead of me, my life just started and I want to enjoy it.
I don't want to feel tied down to anything or anyone, I've been to myself for too long.
I've lost friends because of not being independent but I must say that its ok because I've met new people who I probably wouldn't have come across if it wasn't for me making mistakes.
Consider this taking steps forward, I'm leaving the past in the past and never touching it again.
Whatever hurt me, whatever put me down, its all in the past and I'm a new person.

At Last

I've been killing myself over the smallest things I have no control of, life is hard. If it was easy it wouldn't be reality, everyday you are faced with different obstacles whether you realize it or not.

"I tell God everyday to give me nothing easy and I live by that..."

I see myself as becoming stronger by the day. I use to think that the worse was always occurring to me but I am not to complain anymore. The worst may happen but I don't care anymore I'm done thinking about how much pain I'm feeling and how much each person has hurt me. I'm living for myself and no one else, I am currently not happy with the way things have turned out but one way or another I brought it upon myself, and I've realized that and learned from it. I'm not going to sit around waiting for something great to happen to me, the day belongs to you and its in your hands to make everyday either a good day or a bad day. What I feel now is not really a form of happiness YET, but I have come in recognition of myself and who I must become. I can't point fingers anymore because its no ones fault but mine. You can't depend on others to make you happy because when they're gone what's left? At this point in my life I care about what's important, no one needs to know what or who that is but me as long as I am not lying to myself....


"You have to embrace the Struggles of life and be a better person. Whether its 5 men beside me and 100 men against me, what gives me strength in hard times is that I have the gift of life and every morning i have a choice to make my day a good one or a bad one"

Seconds of Pleasure

Seconds of pleasure is not to be confused with sexual intercourse, instead its those few moments you endure, those moments that only last seconds that you find most pleasurable. It's almost teasing but much more satisfying. The pleasure one feels is not to be compared to any other for it's a soft kiss, no tongue just the interlocking of eachothers lips. So soft, so smooth you feel the warmth all over your body, that warmth traveling from your mouth to in between your legs as the hairs on the back of your neck stand. That same soft kiss that is followed by a desirable stare in eachothers eyes. The whisper in your ear that causes you to bite your lip, close your eyes and let your eyes roll back, as that soft hand runs up and down your spine. Those few seconds where you were softly bitten on the side of your neck as you grasp their arm with satisfaction and your body rubbing against theirs wanting more. The reaction of my body touching yours are my Seconds of Pleasure.